It took me a solid two weeks to really process and work through the frustration, fear, anger, sadness and uncertainty with all of the ever changing Corona virus news. I still feel these things from time to time but I have pressed so hard into God’s word and prayed over and over and over for His peace, love and joy. For my family to feel His peace, love and joy. I have seen God move more in my family in the last two weeks than ever before. Honestly. I choose to fully trust Him. I have had a shift in my heart helping me to see all the good that is coming from this. Today, I watched my little girl light up the most I have seen in over 2 weeks. Cecilia loves school, and I mean full heartedly loves it. She has cried more times than I can count because she is so sad to not see her teachers, friends and thrive in the environment she was made for. It breaks my heart into a million pieces every single time. Today she logged into her online schooling for the very first time and had THE biggest smile actually seeing her teacher and a few friends. She got to do math and other morning things they usually do at school and her heart soared! I sat back and thought, wow! God, thank you so much for the opportunity to witness this. I got to see her use her Spanish more than ever, I got to see her problem solve and excitedly answer questions. What a gift!
I have been struggling with the fact that I can’t be out photographing the amazing people that already booked with me and the other day it dawned on me. Why not capture our family, our ‘new normal’ as we work through this. To attempt to capture the joy that is happening daily. I have read more scripture with my kids and husband than ever before, sang worship songs with my kids and watched their hands stretch high inviting God into their hearts. We have slowed down, spent way more quality time together, opened the windows and appreciated the fresh air and birds singing. I want to remember all of this and so much more forever.
I am so incredibly, strangely grateful for this confusing, hard and gentle, slow time we are gifted with. I am determined to grow, thrive and live fully through this. I would love to share the joy I capture in our home and hope to spread some peace.
